Saturday, November 28, 2015

Lots of thinking time.

I have had a lot of thinking time this week when I haven't been asleep. My youngest child shared his virus from hell with me and I'm a big believer in herbal remedies which I tried madly for 5 days and they did help I was definately healing but after being a sleep for 3 days straight not being able to sleep or eat or actually get out of bed and walk very well and dropping 3 kgs fast my GP out me on antibiotics and I really never take these things but gee when something is bacterial my goodness they work fast!  I still look dreadful, I am still tired but I feel like a new woman, I can eat again things have taste and I can walk around my garden again! 2 other members of the family have it now and are still coughing so might be time for them to get AB's too I think. It certainly was not the flu but not a cold either. Weird.

Anyway I had time to look at some pictures over the years of things that hold dear to my heart right now and I thought I would share.

My family, this is from a few years back, the kids are all 4 years older, but these people, my kids are who I live for.

My garden, I love it, we live on almost an acre and I love every bit from the fruit trees, the chooks, the front cottage garden to the veggie garden, it's so much work ontop of raising 3 kids and running a business but I like being busy and this year I've spent a lot of time on there and had a lot of time off work sadly so it heals me and grounds me.

Other people's artwork relating to the garden, I buy it it at markets and it makes my garden look good. Makes me happy.

Doing really fun stuff with my kids, this was recently at the lake, my son was a little self conscious at other people watching us SUP as it was very busy there, I tune people out easily I just don't look at them, lol. His biggest fear happened and I calmly watched my very proficient swimmer fall off the board lose the paddle, dive under retrieve it jump back on the board and do a victory salute! I swear other parents were watching me wondering when I was going to jump in and save him and I know my kids well though, he would have died of embarrassment had I jumped in hysterically.  We went straight home for a warm shower and he was on a natural high. "Omg mum falling in wasn't so bad, best fun EVER, can we go go back  so I can fall in again"? Lol

My favorite thing, exercising, warmth, water and not falling off!

Simple things like the sunset, knowing another beautiful day is coming tomorrow and I am going to be ok.

My dog, he's not looking good here, his face was swollen and he had just been stung by a bee, but he's always there for me.

My chooks, I just love them, my rooster most of all, I love that he wakes me at sunlight when I am meant to be up. This isn't my rooster it's a hen. 

My spiritual beliefs, and constant desire to learn all I can about being a better person spiritually, that learning never ends for me.

My yoga, I absolutely adore my yoga, I will practise everyday either at the studio or at home, I have the best yoga teacher ever who has become a really close and special friend to me, I have seen her go through adversity and come through and she is someone I admire greatly and have learnt from and continue to learn from everytime I talk to her and she has seen me go through and helped me through a tough time too and been there every step on the way.
Finally I have mastered two differed types of headstand, something I needed to do by December. It's all in video though I can't work out how to get that on blogger.

Garden shows and getting out into the world showing kids things that can be created by others be it in an art gallery or in a garden, we go to many open gardens, I want my kiss to love and appreciate a beautiful garden too.

Found him!  My rooster Henry, my alarm clock. The people in the new units to be built right on my boundary fence may not love him so much though...progress, :(

One of my bikes, I have a good life.

I want to mention friends, but I am hesitant to post pictures of them but I have a few who have been amazing this year, really amazing, I hope I can be as special to them one day.

Healthy food and coffee, I love it!

One of them gave me these beautiful flowers, another takes me to the movies often just to get mymi d distracted for a bit off, another goes for coffee with me, and another sends me texts and cards to keep my spirits up, many came walking with me when I was fast walking all time. I am really very blessed, most won't read this, they aren't aware I blog, but thank you. Xxx

Monday, November 16, 2015

Someone else's Garden

Last weekend was an open garden scheme in this area. I went to two gardens with my eldest child. I looked at pictures and photos supplied on some seats at the first garden and granted it was spectacular, but a lot of money had gone into it and a lot of paid helpers.  The gardens that win my heart are the hard working ones. The labours of love, I know the owners of the first garden will now spend many hours maintaining it. But I'm only showing photos of the second.

Upon chatting to the elderly men that own this property I discovered he actually hates gardening, lol. He doesn't do any of the artistry of gardening and is in fact a Professor at one of the Uni's in Melbourne.  I believe the other chap does all the hard yards, I was impressed and I told him so.  I wish they would adopt me so I could go around and sit in their garden.  I just feel so much healing from a garden like this.  I'm not feeling it my own. Enjoy!

I returned home a little flat at how un arty I actually am and un creative, and how dry my garden is but I'm still getting enjoyment from these pictures.

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Forced Rest = Garden time

Sometime I exercise too much and think I can run. So I ran home from walking my son to school.  I think I can do anything at times, I can't. I injured my knees so have been at home gardening slowly trying to enjoy my home.  I never really enjoy forced rest, but I think my plants benifitted. My legs are healing I adapted my exercise I don't do zero exercise so finally on the mend.

To be honest this week sometimes I have no words, sometimes there's so much you can never say so it manifests physically.  I'm my case my hair is rapidly falling out.  I'm beyond devestated now I mean most people have chemo to loose this much hair.  Not me, just stress. Hopefully someone might show me how to use a headscarf nothing matters anymore.

Sunday, October 4, 2015


October in the garden for me is a month of hard work as Spring brings forward new growth and I remove massive amounts of weeds, I can reflect and enjoy the bulbs I planted back in Autumn prepare the veggie garden for the Summer crop, harvest the last of the Winter crop and try and find some time to sit and enjoy my beautiful garden.

Gorgeous orange Ranunculas.

I walked around the corner of my clinic to see these beautiful Iris's had flowered.  I divided all my Irises this year and have a ton to flowers along the front, I so love the excitement Spring brings.

This is a Tulip that seems to have a hard time staying closed.  It's like the ones slightly deranged one amongst a clump of very serious Tulips.  Of course I relate, it's my favorite. It's out there saying "I can do anything, be anything, nothing's going to hold me back, please accept me I am different".

It's serious friends. The straight Tulips.

A friend brought me these on a trip and I love them, they are so typically me.

The weather has been getting better around here and I am getting much stronger, gaining weight and building muscle, this is my Vintage bike. No gears, hard slog around 25 kilos to push up hills.  I love it. I try to get out and do around 100 km a week on it. Don't think I have used my car for about a week, so good to get out in the fresh air.  I do get some odd looks on it but that's ok. The bright colours I dress in I would get looks regardless.

When I ride hard I get my appetite back and can eat, this is my delicious tofu stir fry, absolutely love this meal, goes down a treat after yoga class.

I have been to some markets of late and brought some second hand things, this was only $3.

This plant, $2, I repotted into an old Bonsai pot. I love the idea of Bonsai, I'm really not very good at maintaining the plants though.

Please excuse dishes, and the rubbish bin no dishwasher here.  Skirt Cooper by Trelese.  $15 Necklace, $5!!! Apparently the label skirt normally sells for $400, I'm not sure as I usually buy from Big W, but the lady at Talbot Market seemed very knowledgeable in these things and I love the skirt it's very unusual not my usual sort of thing. I got a Liz Clairebourne jacket to go with it, also $15! Very blessed!

Looking forward to making some Spearmint tea over Summer.

This is Banana Mint, cannot wait to taste this one!

I really enjoy markets and second hand products, particularly vintage. Talbot market is one of my favorites for excellent buys as is Daylesford. 

October is also a month of denial for me, November will be intense but October I have chosen to just concentrate of recovery from an intense few months, which means focusing on yoga, gardening, getting physically and mentally stronger, forgetting sll the bad stuff and sorting out my diet out accepting I cannot do my paid work right now, studying on self reflection, mindfulness and how best to manage the challenges I have been cursed/blessed with.

Wish me luck I possibly won't be as Zen come mid November! Although I am desperately hoping to do things differently this time around and not get as anxious!

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