Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Today I visited some of my garden.

Today I actually got out and went for a short walk with my dog. I've been In Melbourne it's not been for a pleasant time & haven't been 100% over the weekend but people have been giving me positive pep talks particularly my sister who I now have a different kind of relationship with and another lady who will probably never read this, but boy she is keeping me on track even if she is focusing a little too much on my food intake, lol.I know it's because she cares.

Only 2 weeks ago I took this picture.

But look at my nearly flowering Tulips today! 

I love seeing my plants grow this really did improve my mood a bit.

My Bonsai's outside my clinic are starting to get leaves again.

Finally got some Pansies in my baskets. Had to wait months coldest Winter ever!!!

I brought the best Hyacinths inside, but these look ok too.

I ventured to my paddock and we have broad bean flowers.  I actually loathe broad beans but I am trying to eat from my garden and trying to aim for green and healthy. Little wait but I am watching.

My chinese veggies have all gone to seed, I literally lived on these and poached chicken for months I picked some I think they will still be ok, maybe a little tough.

My friends have returned, all the Magpies around the neighbourhood never attack me, I just say hi to them and treat them kindly and feed them, their nest is in our paddock you might see it to the right and the mum bird to the left.  They are destroying the hanging basket out the back I just made out of coir but so what it's getting used for their babies and that's exciting. I love new life. I love nature and watching these baby Maggies grow up.

No gardening got done today too tired still healing, but I am getting hope back and I know you may not read this but thank you. And to my family who may well read it MASSIVE thank you. 

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Lately I have been...

I haven't blogged much, things have been a bit cold here and a there has been a lot on. I am dealing with some major things righr now are some amazing things that are getting me through.

Last week I went to a friends farmstay and stayed 2 days with my eldest son, caught up with a friend and brought this while there. There is so much to be grateful for in life so this has a lot written in here already. We had a really good bonding time, he helped me to eat a little more he's such a good kid my eldest son and has just been chosen by his school to be a white ribbon ambassador.  I felt like it would be the last time we would have such a special time together.  He has two intense years coming up with VCE Next year.  I did my first handstand yoga style while away. Major achievement.  😊

A really good friend gave me this to take my mind of things, she knows I cannot focus too well right now and this is meant to be calming it's an adults colouring book.  I did a page put my music on only made it classical instead of my full speed stuff for exercise.

Clearly no artistic genes in my body but hey I'm not trying to impress and it was done the night before I had to catch a train so it certainly took my mind of that angst!

The same friend gave me this, I am not remotely christian, but I am deeply spiritual, I do believe in a higher power and universal law, she felt as a tactile person herself she likes to hold things all the time that this could be helpful for me, the wood is Olive and feels smooth, the look of the grain is awesome, I love it, I feel safe when I start to panic, trouble is I keep loosing it, I put it down kids also like its feel bang its gone. It's rather large or I would wear it around my neck!  This girl is pure love, she cares so deeply for people.

I brought this Yak made blanket from the yoga studio for $20 and ALL profits go back to Nepal and it was made in Nepal and now I have learnt what a Yak is so triply blessed plus it looks cool is warm and right now I hold this close and sit tight. Feel secure.

This is making my body and mind strong, I do yoga every single day, I am for 4 times a week hot yoga at my friends studio and then 3 times a week practise Hatha at home. It completely grounds me and quitens my mind.  I just love it, it has gotten me through some tricky and tough times.

I have no garden news this time, not even a garden picture to share.  Love to all. Xxx

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